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Monday, August 07, 2000
need to learn more - 05:55 PM
after yesterday's naughtiness mcgarnicle is now an outside dog. i miss him already. my darling was very angry with him for chewing his mobile phone & since mcgarnicle's been such a chewy dog lately anyway, the new rule is that he has to stay outside. poor doggie. 
i just went shopping for the first time in about two years .. yes, it's really been that long! i'm not talking about grocery shopping either, that doesn't count, it's not fun like clothes shopping is. i bought four tops (i wasn't planning on getting that many, but one of them was a three for $30 deal so i got the extra two) & a really cool bright orange paisley skirt. i also bought my honey two jumpers. one of them doesn't fit right but we can take it back to exchange it so that's okay. i had fun!
web development is my chosen career but at this point all i've done professionally is a total of about five weeks. i did one job as a contractor for a guy at the gold coast, but that was about six weeks ago now & since then i haven't heard from him. i'm becoming afraid that i just can't do this. i can do html, that's no problem at all, i can do that with my eyes closed (figuratively speaking of course), but who needs html these days? what with all the wysiwyg (what you see is what you get) editors out there, what i do can be done without knowing a scrap of html.
i need to learn more but i don't know what. shroom asked me if i'd like to do another course, but that's just not fair on him. he's been supporting me for over twelve months now & to do another course would be rude. i've finally got some work (even if it is just working at a servo) & i can finally start contributing, so i don't want to go back to being dependent on him again. it would not be fair on him at all.
i should be going out & finding work, but i'm so afraid that i won't be able to do it. i don't think that i have the skills. i was ever so keen two months ago, but now i'm so scared of making a fool of myself.
tonight i'm going to go to my sister's place to borrow some notes from my brother-in-law. he's been doing a web development course covering everything from html to java to e-commerce. tonight i'll borrow his notes on java & see if i'm clever enough to learn that. i don't want to be working at a service station forever.
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