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Thursday, May 01, 2003
feeling good - 09:40 AM
i'm getting used to my belly now. previously it was a bit of a thing to lug around & it felt really obvious to me. it still feels obvious, but i'm starting to enjoy it more. i find myself rubbing my belly unconsciously, but then at other times i even forget that i'm pregnant for a little while & don't even notice it sticking way out there.
most days though, i have at least one good look at myself to see what's changed. usually before i'm about to jump in the shower i'll stand in front of the mirror naked for a minute or two, turning side to side, inspecting myself.
i can see day by day how much bigger my belly is getting, not-so-slowly, but ever-so-surely. i can tell when i stand on the scales as well. last night, i weighed myself at 58 kilograms (almost 128 pounds), compared to my pre-pregnancy weight of about 52 kgs. it's all baby (& baby extras, like placenta & boobs & water retention) though, because i can see when i look down, or during my mirror inspections, that my thighs haven't become any heavier.
my bum seems to have changed shape, although shroom sees that more than i do. i can see that i seem to be carrying a bit more at the sides of my bum than i used to. maybe that's to allow some stretching room for the belly.
my breasts .. my gosh. my boobs are turning into small planets! i was worried when i went off the pill & they shrunk, but having them bigger doesn't really please me or displease me either way. shroom is very happy about it, though. he's a boob man through & through. a few weeks ago i was standing in front of him & he looked at me sideways with a critical eye for a moment or two before stating, "i think your boobs are getting smaller again." i denied this, of course, but he said, "no, i'm sure they're getting smaller." so i lifted my top to prove they were still growing rapidly. he looked at them studiously .. put a hand on each one & gave them a gentle squeeze .. "nope, you're right. they are still bigger." the cheeky bugger .. *chuckle* all he had to do was ask! 
i've been feeling really good lately. they reckon that the second trimester is like that. i feel as though i could stay pregnant like this forever. i don't have huge amounts of energy like some women do in the second trimester, but i'm nowhere near as exhausted as i was over the first few months. a few weeks ago i stopped taking my herbal morning sickness tablets to see if i was still feeling sick & i was. i'm trying again. i didn't take any tablets yesterday, so by this afternoon i'll be able to tell if i'm still feeling yuck.
i can eat meat again! i'm still not a huge meat fan, haven't been for a long time, but not being able to eat even chicken was severely limiting my diet when i had to eat anywhere but at home. i ate a sausage or two a few weeks ago, then tried a chicken parmigiana (yum!). the other night i even ate some of my spaghetti bolognese. i haven't been able to eat as much as i used to yet, most times i've started making faces before i reach the end of the meal as the meat gets a bit too much, but the fact that i can even eat a bit of meat is excellent.
tomorrow i'll be officially 19 weeks pregnant. going by calendar months, that leaves about five months to go. seems like a long time, but i'll bet that it flies. in no time at all i'll have a little crying bubby in my arms which will make the time pass even faster. it's quite exciting. 
I was told not to think of the "extra" fat as extra fat but milk-stores for the baby. And they are right too, you need all that fat to help make your milk for Rudegear. And don't worry about your belly size too much, I bet it's beautiful and we all carry our "loads" differently! When I was at wk 34 I got a friend to take some B&W photos of my belly and they're on the wall in our bedroom, a great little reminder of how amazing pregnancy is.
I can remember that feeling of wanting to eat but as soon as the meal was in front of me I just didnt have the room in there to fit it in. Its good that you are enjoying the experience of being pregnant, I did until the end when I felt like a beached whale and wetting myself everytime I coughed, sneezed or even laughed cause the baby was pushing on my bladder. You wait you have all this excitement to come lol.
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when I first read this, I thought you were going to be in for a hell of a shock in a month or two!
Now I see what you're talking about. That potbelly is HUGE!!