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Saturday, June 07, 2003
special - 07:59 PM
rudegere has been moving around a bit, lately. he's not as active this week as he has been for the previous few weeks, but i can still feel him shifting around in there quite regularly.
last week, i felt him in two opposite spots on my belly, as if one bump on the inside was his head & the other bump was his feet. he must be getting quite big by now. my book tells me that he's about thirteen inches long & weighs over half a kilo (about one pound). there must be so much other stuff to support him, or things getty ready to support him, because i've put on about eight kilos since the beginning of the pregnancy. wow .. that's seven & a half kilos of boobs, placenta, amniotic fluid, extra blood & water retention. according to some of my readings & by my calculations, by the end of the pregnancy i'll weigh about eleven kilos more than i did at the beginning. so if i have, say, an eight pound baby (i can only think of new babies in pounds), which translates to just over three & a half kilos, then the rest of the weight i put on from now should be all baby. interesting .. first time i've thought of it like that. grow, rudegere, grow!!
a few people have told me that i'll really miss having rudegere inside me once he's actually born. i can understand how that might be true. feeling him move around inside me is so wonderful. sometimes it feels a bit weird, but mostly, it's like having company all the time. nice, quiet company that doesn't play its music too loud.
when i lie in bed at night, i like to lie with my hands on my belly so i can feel him moving from every angle, so to speak. sometimes it feels as though he just rolls around, which isn't so obvious (at least, not at this stage) from the outside, but when he kicks or punches it's so nice to be able to feel it on the inside as well as on my hands.
if shroom could understand what he was missing out on, i'm sure he'd be jealous. he kisses & touches my belly, but mainly when i stand up to give him a hug & by then, rudegere stops moving. he also puts his hand on my belly at night sometimes before he rolls over to go to sleep, but by then rudegere has already had a little jiggle & settled down.
i feel so lucky to be able to experience something like this. i've never really had a wish to be anything other than what i am, that is, a girl, but being able to experience this makes me feel incredibly lucky & special. guys miss out on so much.
my dad says there's a jewish prayer which says something to the effect of, "thank god i wasn't born a woman," but having been able to do this makes me say, "thank god i was born a woman & can experience one of the most amazing things in the world" .. something that no man will ever experience.
wait until she's bigger and rolls over! now, THAT feels weird!
being pregnant might be neat, but you still can't take a pee where-ever & when-ever you like.
just enoy every minute you can. you can keep it quiet, and still have a smile of joy
. woman can do this, man can do that. maybe a man can't understand how it is to have a baby inside, but they have other quality's. i think that shroom becomes a great father. everyone has a place under the sun, and had to do what he or she can do!! everyone has his quality's. greetings from edwinIt's cool when they're inside and it's cool when they're outside. A whole lot more to think about and do when they're out but it's all still good. I thought I'd really miss having a baby move around inside me but I didn't even notice the lack of movement because there was this little human that needed all of my attention.
Just wait until Shroom sees your belly do an imitation of a creature about to burst out of your navel! (What's that movie with Sigorney Weaver in it that I'm thinking of??)OH, and your book is like THE best book you could use!
hehe, alien is the movie.
my sister bought me that book ages ago when i told her i was going off the pill (six months before i fell pregnant). my sister is excellent. i don't know what i'd do without her.
Nice. Its good to see women enjoying their pregnancy, when on the net today, most women out there refer to an unborn child as "it" instead of giving it a name, because it is easier to abort it outright that way, it makes me smile knowing their are some women who enjoy what they are given.
My mother must have been one of those women. She had me, and died of cancer 11 months later. She could have lived a little longer had she went for an abortion -- but she did what you did. She chose life. =]
BTW: Not an Anti-Abortionist, I just feel disgusted by the bullshit I see surrounding it...
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it is amazing, isn't it? and when i think about the absolute complexity of the process of creating a human being, it's just awe-ish.
there is no way that you will have an 8 pound baby with parents as tiny as you and the fungus