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Monday, January 09, 2006
walking away crying - 04:15 PM
(filed under 'smiley')
i hate it when smiley goes away, or if i'm leaving, & he's crying instead of waving happily bye bye. i know that sometimes it's unavoidable, but it breaks my heart to see him all upset because we're separating.
lately, now that we all know each other better, kalyani has been taking him with her for a little bit of time each day to play with other kids & to give me a short break & sometimes he'll leave quite happily, but today & yesterday he cried & screamed when he left. i know he has fun once he's there & he comes back really happy, but i can't help but feel terrible.
i'm sure it'd be the same if i was leaving him at day care or kindergarten. i've heard stories over & over again of kids crying their eyes out (& the mums barely holding their own tears back) day after day, until eventually they know it's going to be fun & they know mummy's coming back & they're happy to be left there or to leave with the carer.
i've always said that i'd never sneak away from my child if i had to leave & i knew he'd been unhappy, but i've had to do so a handful of times. mainly when i'm just ducking up the shop or something & i want or need to go on my own. i always try to at least touch him once before i go. if i tell him goodbye, though, & he knows i'm going & wants to come with me, then he cries & is really unhappy with shroom for ages. if i do manage to sneak off quickly, then he stays happy. it's a tricky situation. i really hate sneaking off. it feels cruel & deceitful.
my poor little darling. i hate it when the last thing i see of him is his face all contorted with unhappiness. 
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