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black sheep - 06:03 PM
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you know, i think i've finally figured out that i'm the black sheep of the family. maybe not black. perhaps dark brown, instead. lol! 
i'm talking about what my immediate family think of me. my extended family probably don't think so at all.
here are the reasons that i think they think that way:
- i'm the only one in my family that has (so far) not really ever had an idea of what i want to be when i 'grow up'.
- i've got piercings that they all detest. monica maybe doesn't hate them as much as mum & dad do, but she's definitely not into piercings other than in the ear lobes.
- i'm the only one that doesn't go to church anymore.
- i'm home educating my child.
- i'm still breastfeeding him at 4.5 years old.
- i'm more into being 'green' than any of my family. i'm more of a hippy & into natural living, generally.
- i wear dark colours a lot of the time (mainly because i'm a messy eater & i quickly permanently stain anything that's lighter than brown, black or dark blue).
- i dyed my hair blond hair dark brown at one stage (i'm sure mum & dad thought i was turning into a satanist or something when i did that).
- i've shaved my head twice so far (probably won't again. i've done it now. i'm happy).
- i regularly have hair styles that they all pretty much don't like & think are kind of weird.
- i've never really had what my mum would probably call a 'proper' job (i'm pretty sure monica & dad don't think this way. they're not so stuck in the academic way of thinking as mum is).
- i'm not even close to what you might call 'being a lady'. i'm sure mum desperately hopes that might happen one day, but i hope she's not holding her breath. i know in what situations i have to 'behave'. that's good enough for me.
none of these things are what my family would call inherently wrong (although not going to church anymore would come close. lol!), but with the combination of all of those things i'm sure they think i'm pretty strange.
i guess i turned out very differently to them. i know there's nothing wrong with that & i'm proud of who i am. it bugs me sometimes that i don't feel particularly accepted for it, but over all, i like me & i'm happy that i can still be me even with the mild condemnation, even if they don't mean for that to come across.
amongst all this, i do know my family love me & would do anything for me if i ever needed their help, so don't worry about that. 
it amuses me that it's taken me almost thirty-six years to figure out that i'm the black sheep. hehe. i suppose my one saving grace (in their eyes) is that at least i've never been into sex, drugs & rock & roll. rotfl!!
individualism is the word that stands out here. i've never been one to follow the "norm" as well. why do you think i call you real girl (for one reason anyway). thinking for yourself and not with the masses.
I think it's more because you are secure in who you are that you've not let it get to you. I think you're wonderful just the way you are.
You'd think after 36 years they'd be used to it too. I can't believe you're that old anyway, you still look 12.
you are great, corrie
only your point of view is different, you see things at your unique style, and keep it that way
you standing out off the massesCorri, would you mind if I emailed you to talk about home education? I'm trying to make a decision at the moment about whether to head in that direction and I'd value your insights.
yeah but all those things that make you different to them - make you, you!
Being different is not a bad thing, Corri. Actually, I have seen women (in America!) breastfeed 6-year olds.
Yup, TMI.
Then there is my younger brother (at 42) whom still has not learned to drive. Got the idea from Mr. Steed on the 'Avengers.' No, my sister-in-law does not think she is Mrs. Peel. LOL
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ROFL!! I find that really funny! That you just realised, I mean